May

first of all... i'm not studying moral and chinese just to blog about this month....

xxxxxxx Please Come Back To Me xxxxxxx

We had been together for 3 months... you understood me... you were there by my side every time i needed... everytime i feel i am not worthy of you, you make me feel wanted... we went on trips together: Pulau Pangkor and Banting... at first, i didn't believe in you... but you showed me loyalty... everytime i get mad at you, you just keep quiet...

I'm sorry i left you in Banting... i didn't mean to... please come back to me... i really need you back...

xxxxxxxx Destiny xxxxxxxx

"Girls, could you help clean the hall please. Thanks." that was what you said with an accent... well you ARE cute looking and tall and handsome but not dark...

anyway... you stood beside me... and ya... everytime you have a drastic movement... i can see it... like your punches are way wrong... you wipe the floor before you sit down... and your forward stunt is real big...

so... when i first saw you... i was like, cute guy cute guy... then your accent... anyway i know you're chinese and you have a chinese name which i don't know... woohoo...

so... curious i am about your name... i see if we are destined to meet again... or it's perhaps just a chance meeting... anyway nice meeting you...

xxxxxxx Grandmaster Park xxxxxxxx

the greatest man of taeguek... my salutes to you grandmaster park... at the age of 77, you are traveling around the world... 62 years in taekwondo... involved in the creation of taeguek and the man who invented higher black belts taeguek... thanks for your teachings today... i've learned more than i could ever learn should i only attend every sundays...

ok... now the not so serius part... he does not pronounce his english... and his english is like konglish... being from korea and sort... anyway could overall understand... reminds me of when i was in japan and i'm surrounded by lots of people who tries real hard to speak english to me...

Kamsahamnida

xxxxxxxx Exam xxxxxxxx

Anyway promised myself, su lynn and sharon and perhaps su saint to attend all the exams this term... no matter how much i suck in almost every subject... at least i made the effort to go to school and take the exams...

ok... people, do remind me if i forget to study during the holidays cause i promised myself that on days that i have nothing on, i'll go library and study... hopes it works well... and the subjects after the holidays don't suck so much... gambateh...

xxxxxxxx Drama xxxxxxx

i'm proud to announce that CHS Drama Team is the Selangor Champion... which means we are going Penang for the nationals... Hip, hip hurray... ok... i very syok sendiri larh...

anyway... guys and gals from the drama team... please send me the videos and pictures k?

and someone remind sloth to do the t-shirt please... oh... and edward cullen won't be joining us this time... sad wei but life must still go on...

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

that's all for now.... further updates later ya... goodbye...

May life

May!! a new time for a new life...

well maybe not so new... but definitely a time to change...

i'm told to write good things and to think positively... so here goes...

mr william praised me for my acting... and the best of all... he says me and wai leem were the best... team work man...

i can vibrato a bit... but better than before when i totally can't vibrato...

i'm going prom... woohoo...

and i'm trying hard to prove myself to mok... wish me luck people...

anyway going pangkor tomorrow... a vacation to forget unhappy stuff...

oh and sports duty tomorrow... to all fellow marchers... please don't faint... i know the speech is like freaking long... but just take it as rock and roll music to the ears...

haha... anyway... leaving old town white coffee soon...

chiao...

Second Chance

I want a second chance but i don't think i deserve it... i screw up every chances given to me...

i fall down easier than i stand up...

the wall i build keeps crumbling down...

and everytime i try to climb up the hole i fell into... people push me right down again...

i can't accept who i am... or the fact that i am a below average person that many dislikes...

i try so hard to prove myself... but to who?? family?? friends??

after a while, i realize, it's to prove that there are reasons to leave and that i can do things...

no one recognize me as who i am, my attitude and my choices...

even i can't do that... to the extend of ending my own life...

feelings are chosen to potray... who am i??

remove all the cheerfulness, and smiles and laughter... remove all the emotions i do when i'm upset, remove my whatever accomplishments i have... i am nothing...

i want a second chance but i'm too tired to go on living like this... coming to school, trying to skip all the classes, not doing homework... just going on like that...

i see no future or who i am now...

Second chance?? i think not...

Oh Gosh!

Exam is close to over with EST tomorrow... I'm so free i'm doing personality test on the website i just found... anyway, i did so many that it'll be impossible to upload on my blog... and i think i'll keep it private...

oh gosh... i cram up my whole next week.. kinda... let's start:
april 8 : Viola Exam... have not been really practicing...
april 9 : Drama Competition... also have not been practicing
april 10 : SPBT trip to Bagan Lalang... and gosh it's expensive for a day trip... have not done much contribution to it... got quite tired and bored...
april 11 : Marching Competition... Gambate to all who's participating...
what a tight schedule... hope i can handle it...

oh and what else?? let me think about it...

gosh.. i can't...

guess you guys should always check my blog for updates...

Haha...

Get to know yourself better

ddid this test on this website... you could check it out

:http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.