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Thursday, July 24, 2008

一直听人说十六岁是最甜的年龄了。可为什么我喝了这很苦的茶呢?为什么我泡的茶如此苦呢?难道我不能继续喝甜茶吗?我应该如何才能把苦茶便甜呢?

我用的材料如下:
一杯感情, 一桶心血,一瓶懒惰,半杯努力,一点点骄傲,一点点自以为是,半杯希望,一瓶开心, 半桶失望,一桶伤心, 一桶自责,一桶信心。

为什么现在的我如此讨厌自己?对自己失去信心,不再相信自己,不再希望会成功,只希望做得到,因为不想再次受伤害而变得自私, 因为曾经被伤害所以讨厌自己。。。
Hehe... just trying out this chinese program i just downloaded... allow me to continue blogging in chinese...

一直在找着可以让我在电脑写华语的program。可惜的是我一直找不到我要的东西。有的话,都只有一个月的期限。都不能够让我用多久。

Monday, July 21, 2008

Ms. Goh:

This is to reconfirmed your membership in 'I lost a close friend' Club. Your reason of joining back this club was, quoted 'I lost a friend because of my feelings to him that I cannot take back. We are no longer friends but just colleagues.' Your reason for membership is therefore strong enough.

A reminder here, you may resign from the club at any time if you have regain your friendship.

from,
The Club Manager.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

relax...

i need to relax myself... after going through ~and still going through~ i learned how to control my temper and how to talk to those idiots that just don't know how to ask questions properly...

so... when i'm at the verge of crying or mad... i'll take deep breaths and remind myself that these idiots will get their payback one day... one day... so i won't breakdown anymore ~hopefully~

anyway, i'm trying to stay positive... so.... wait for a new me...

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Complication...

Complicated people under complicated situation makes complicated relationship and cause more complicated situation...

my best friend solved her relationship problem already... she said no... so, everyone, learn to say no when you are feeling uneasy... it won't hurt to protect yourself...

ok, now that my best friend have solved her problem, i really really need to solve my own problem...

wish me luck... hwaiting....

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Today And Yesterday

i went for a H&G ~harmonica and guitar~ concert yesterday... it was nice because they were using of course guitar and harmonica to play songs...

i invited a friend i met at a YHC ~youth holiday camp~ few years back... it was fun meeting him back... we had a lot to talk about... so i think we should have more gatherings... so see you soon, Diong...

so, today i went for a dinner with the orchestra members and some of the small group members...

what's wrong with being close with a guy?? i have so many guy friends but no boyfriends ok??

ok, it was a short update only... so...

see you soon, i hope...

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Drama bit....

ok.. the saying is that drama life are fake and will not happen in real life... but i beg to differ... some part of the drama life WILL happen...

let me tell you why... remember those parts when the best friend steals the boyfriend... the girlfriend doesn't want the guy... the guy wants her back... ask her best friend what to do... and the best friend falls in love with the guy... and so on...

well, it's not so dramatic in my life but... ok...
my best friend which will call A broke up with the boyfriend which we will call B. anyway B really loves A and wants her back in his life... but A is in a conflict... to accept him or to say no... she avoided him for a few days but start talking to him again because she thinks it's bad to avoid... ~please don't think you can't be friends again after breaking up... it's too hard to stay that way...~ so B keeps sms me about ways to get her back... i keep chatting with him about her then...

not only about A, but we have another project together to do... we always whisper and i often see him because he has been staying back for a few days now... ~i don't like him because i liked someone else who probably don't like me the way i do...~

so today was my AGM... you know how girls hug each other right?? i was congratulating my friends on their post they got... so when it was his turn... it was awkward because i wanted to shake hands to congrat but our hands were like in between hugging or shaking hands... but we eventually shaked hands only... ~friends mah~ ~please don't get angry, A... it's just that we are a bit closer then before... but he really loves you... i'm only the middle person...~

besides... i have to forget romance... the guy i like... well i have been avoiding him... and when i congrats him, it was damn awkward... his hands were cold and i feeling like warming up... ~i warmed up hands especially girls... in exchange for some warmth in their hands...~ i really wanted to hold on to his hands but... it's impossible... i'm not sure whether we did it on purpose but after shaking, i did not immediately let go but hold on for a while...

anyway... it's just that now... with what he is... i've to forget i like him and act professionally with him... ~we both need to cooperate~ no more 'manja'ing and lunch with him... or badminton... haiz... what to do? who ask me to like him....

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

The 'Oops' factor

~i meant to update this yesterday but somehow my connection was done...~

Ok, so what's with the 'oops' factor, you ask?

Well, here goes... i went for a Hepatitis B checkup... which means withdrawing blood from my fat hand...

see the word fat?? it means the nurse can't find the veins or if they did was the wrong one... so she tried on my right hand, inject, there's blood but it's not the vein, it's my skin punctured... so they ask me to rest for a while....

after half an hour, i tried with my left hand... Yay... Blood.... but still not the vein, so there goes another puncture...

last option, the back of my palm... to tell the truth, it hurts like hell... imagine feeling a needle under your skin... at the point of injecting, it was hell painful and it remained until the needle came off...

so conclusion, slim down and NEVER EVER allow the nurse to inject the back of the palm....

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the 'oops' factor version 2

Blood Donation taboo... the 'oops' word... Why??

situation: you are sitting on the chair, waiting for the nurse to withdraw blood... the nurse can't find your veins.. she starts slapping your arm to show the veins *hopefully*... sees a strand of it, says i think this is... she injects and... she says... oops salah...

thats what my uncle dread in donating blood....

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going back to class, i had 3 plasters on my hand... like i just came back from a knife fight... but luckily i could still type....


Sunday, July 6, 2008

This whole week...

i promised myself that i will write my blog everyday... but... there are some problems... i am trying to change my blog template... but i couldn't... i spend 5 nights trying to do that, and i am getting mad every time i try to change... so if anyone could kindly tell me, what is a 'publicId' and 'systemId' i will be very grateful...

i just had an orchestra performance in Bukit Jalil G&C Resort... it was nice minus the food... we had better food last year... haiz... nizways, PJYCO is 25 yrs old, L&J is 27 yrs old and the founder is 60 yrs old... i thought he was only in his early 50s...

i said sorry to friends over my past behaviours... i know it's a bit too late... but maybe i was being selfish, i wanted to get those things off my mind... but guys are guys... haiz...

talking about guys... okay fang yin, i will tell which type of guys are handsome plus cool (to me only of coz)... guys who wears long sleeve shirt(preferebly light blue *my fav colour*), plus a tie (not maroon or any dark colour plz) and last but not least, a coat that fits (bob, your coat is toooo big for you, look at kerobob's... it fits)... must be nice looking (need not be the cutest), kind, around 175 or taller (but not 190 plz... unless i'm 180 which would not happen), does not smoke and so on... (i'm a bit picky though) (but it is for cute and HANDSOME guys lorh) a bonus, if that guy can play any string instrument....

ok... i'll write till here... have to sleep... i'll try to update once i can change my template (stupid blog skin)

goodnight and goodbye,
Shiau Ling