Second Chance

I want a second chance but i don't think i deserve it... i screw up every chances given to me...

i fall down easier than i stand up...

the wall i build keeps crumbling down...

and everytime i try to climb up the hole i fell into... people push me right down again...

i can't accept who i am... or the fact that i am a below average person that many dislikes...

i try so hard to prove myself... but to who?? family?? friends??

after a while, i realize, it's to prove that there are reasons to leave and that i can do things...

no one recognize me as who i am, my attitude and my choices...

even i can't do that... to the extend of ending my own life...

feelings are chosen to potray... who am i??

remove all the cheerfulness, and smiles and laughter... remove all the emotions i do when i'm upset, remove my whatever accomplishments i have... i am nothing...

i want a second chance but i'm too tired to go on living like this... coming to school, trying to skip all the classes, not doing homework... just going on like that...

i see no future or who i am now...

Second chance?? i think not...