I realised...

I realised that because of my stubbornness... i missed out a lot of things...

but then i realised too that... if i was there... i would have been lonely...

then... i realised that my friends would not be happy with me there...

in the end...

i realised... i hate myself... i hate being like that...

i realised... i still disliked them... that i sometimes hate myself for being around them...

i realised... i loss my friends... or whatever they are... cause i don't want to care about how they treat me anymore...

i realised... i have no true friends at all...

i realised... all my dreams will only be dreams...

i realised... nothing good seems to happened to me...

and i realised you are reading my blog... thank you...