POV: Friends

it's the end of the month again. still, things haven't change for the better... anyway, i think i just post something more positive this time...

Definition: (my POV)

Best friend : someone who is always there for you no matter how hard you try to shut people off. someone you share common interest with.

Close friend : someone who REALLY sticks by you no matter how stupid you acted and knows what you are facing. someone who just stops you from falling deeper with moderate encouragements and a lot of scolding. someone who just makes you feel safe.

Good friend : -someone who would not stop you from growing and expanding your talents

Friend's friend : -someone who you could communicate with and always happens to turn your
world right side up at the time when everything seems bleak.

So which type do you think you are to your friends??

OR you could do your own definition of friends...

a relationship between people are very subjective that there are no wrongs or rights in one... there is no definite way of how someone should have a relationship....

GOOD LUCK IN EVERYTHING YOU DO! ESPECIALLY IN RELATIONSHIPS!!

My Old Blog

I deleted my old blog... on myspace..

Reason??

1. I was a stupid stupid girl with stupid stupid way of thinking and my stupidity of me thinking i can express my thoughts on the blog... i acted stupidly at times and behave stupidly... in conclusion, i was and still am a stupid stupid girl who do stupid stupid stuff...

2. i want to forget those unhappy stuff that happened though some are still happening... anyway, just one of the way to forget about stuff...

3. I'm using Blogspot as my blog area... therefore there is no such need to have a not to date blog...

i read through my blog and realized that my thinking over the years have sort of changed... my old blog was always so cheerful, so happy and so grateful... i was always announcing to the world important dates...

Nowadays, i write about my feeling, my thinking... more of a record of my feeling...

plus i guess no one wants to read about my thinking as it's never important...

so happy living!!

遗憾。。。

今天看着你对我的态度，却能够很冷静的面对。很冷静的告诉你。并不害怕你会对我做什么以及所有的不满。我最近终是惹了别人的不满。

看着你的叛逆。能够了解你的感受。反正，上了form4随着也是叛逆时期。并不能怪你。也不生你的气。

我不遗憾看着你叛逆。并不伤心。
但是，我遗憾对seniors曾经有叛逆过。伤心无法向seniors说声对不起。

Haiz...

I'm very sad and frustrated and 'fui' already...

is that all of me only??

a fucking loser, a nobody, a rubbish, a stupid reckless girl??

i feel like giving up everything i have now and just leave this world...

friendship, studies, societies and dreams...

everything i do is wrong... EVERYTHING... nothing i do is right to the norm of the society...

maybe i can't accept the fact that time have changed... that a person can't happily be a nobody... that a nobody is equal to a fucking loser... that people nowadays sees only the outside... that everybody is a person by themselves... that i'm useless...

people can't get everything that they want... but i can't get anything i want...

i'm not doing the trip cause one, nobody is supporting me except lik chin, two, this year's plan is a total chaos... and three, i was told to think of others... so i let the trip go... no matter how much i feel like doing it...

i realised that the friends i thought i could not rely on turns out to be the only friends i can rely on... thanks Sharon, su lynn, su saint and lik chin... and other friends :weil shern, rachel, wei guan, wei liang, win yen and chia li... thanks you guys...

i shouldn't find X for opinions... X will say no to everything and give excuses... no matter how much the idea she give is good...

at this time... i have no one to talk to about how i'm feeling without hurting both parties' feeling...

so feel like crying... NO!! i must be strong... i must hurt back those that hurt me before... i must be strong to be brave and beat others...

Worried??

Why do i get so worried over other people?? some people actually scold me whenever i'm so worrying over them...

but the messages he sent kinds of remind me of what i was last year... i do not want to see him walking down the wrong path...

but because of our status... i can't really go and help him... my friends would scold me for involving myself in his problems...

but all i want is to see him being himself and happy again...

So, YES!
I'm worried about him...
and i want to help him as much as he allows...