I want a second chance but i don't think i deserve it... i screw up every chances given to me...
i fall down easier than i stand up...
the wall i build keeps crumbling down...
and everytime i try to climb up the hole i fell into... people push me right down again...
i can't accept who i am... or the fact that i am a below average person that many dislikes...
i try so hard to prove myself... but to who?? family?? friends??
after a while, i realize, it's to prove that there are reasons to leave and that i can do things...
no one recognize me as who i am, my attitude and my choices...
even i can't do that... to the extend of ending my own life...
feelings are chosen to potray... who am i??
remove all the cheerfulness, and smiles and laughter... remove all the emotions i do when i'm upset, remove my whatever accomplishments i have... i am nothing...
i want a second chance but i'm too tired to go on living like this... coming to school, trying to skip all the classes, not doing homework... just going on like that...
i see no future or who i am now...
Second chance?? i think not...
