A Picture Says A Thousand Words

just like the title... a picture says a thousand words... Go figure then...

你还记得我吗？

今天我看到了你，我们在同一个地方，你在东边，我在西边。可是你望我一眼，却认不出我，我对你招手，你的眼神充满了疑问。

你还记得我吗？我是谁，你知道吗？或许我只不过是你在世上认识的某个人，一点也不耀眼，也很普通。可是你知道你在我这些年的生活有多大的影响吗？因为你，我学了很多东西。因为你，我在那4天过得很开心。因为你，我勇敢去向社会踏出第一步，虽然到最后我还是放弃了。你真得不记得我吗？

是你变了，还是我变了？还是因为我曾经喜欢你，所以在茫茫人海之中看到你呢？

我在这十六年的生活，遇过了很多人，也爱过很多人。可是，我到底在多少个人的心目中有地位呢？到底还有多少个人记得我吗？

其实我很希望其他人能够记得我。每一次，我都会记得你们。路上遇到你们，都会和你打招呼。可是我不知道你是不是真的记得我。

你还记得我吗？

Couples... B&W...

what's the best thing that you have when you couple??
a new guy/girl to be there for you when you are sad or happy

what's the worse thing about coupling??
you lose your life, school life and friends...

what's the best thing about having your friend coupling??
you get to feed on their stories...

what's the worse thing about having your friend coupling??
you get stuck in between and left alone...

what's the best thing about having the top5 coupling??
you know that they are good for each other...

what's the worse thing about having the top5 coupling??
they set a bad example to the younger kids...

what's the best thing about having a boyfriend??
there's someone there for you no matter what...

what's the worse thing about having a boyfriend??
he is always there for you until you lose your friends...

what's the best thing about having a girlfriend??
you become independent and manlier...

what's the worse thing about having a girlfriend??
you bend down like a dog and become a piece of disrespected boy just to keep her as your girlfriend...

A/N
what's the worse thing about being alone??
i'm still alone... and lonely...

what's the best thing about being alone??
i can crap about such stuff with no regret or fear that my boyfriend would dump me the next day...

Wishes do come true...

Wishes do come true... in another form...

sometimes when we wish for something, we do get it... but not the way we hope for...

for instance i wish to get a pet... i got 2 hamsters... i was actually hoping for a tsih tzu...

so be careful of what you wish for... it might come true... whether you like it or not...

Laws of Shiau Ling

Since there are laws for Physics... i might as well tell my laws... not really my laws... but i thought of it... but i do not claim copyright over it...

1)Pythagoras' theorem Law
Application: if you are walking from the back gate to tapak... walk from the stairs near prefect room to your class... only apply to form4 or form3...

2) Charsiew siewyok Law
Remember how whenever you order charsiew siewyok fun, you get more charsiew??


ok... i'm actually bored writing this entry... so i shall stop here...while i go and play more games... wahaha...

Tired...

i'm so tired... tired in pretending...

that i'm all right... that i am catching up in school... that i don't mind being alone... that i agree to your relationship... that i don't care about how you are acting... that i can close an eye on your stupid childish behaviour... that i don't mind being your puppet... that i keep thinking of cute hot guys...

I'm not all right... i can't catch up in school... i really mind being alone... i disagree to your relationship... i care of how you are acting... i can't close my eye cause you are a man, a well respected guy, not a cheap boyfriend that bends down to a girl... i mind being your puppet cause you don't care about me... and i don't think of hot guys... i just want a boyfriend who cares for me...

i just want someone to be there when i need... a shoulder to cry on... someone to share my feelings... someone who understands what i'm going through... someone who really cares for me...

Marching...

hey... i'm cute... or that's what my junior thinks of us...

so today we had our 2nd perjumpaan... and i'm in charge of the marching section... ok... so training for the juniors... too bad... but we had our fair share too... 2 years back...

anyway... during the theory session... since i am not involve in it, i went round snapping... photos, of course... photos shall only be reveal at the end of our term...

and more marching... well... i can only comment that... the juniors have improved a lot... yeah... pat yourself on your back...

well... that's for now...

Why? oh Why??

i don't want to talk to you anymore... you are terrible....

you never wish me happy birthday... ok... you 'kap qin' with my friends to buy the present... but you never say anything about it... it's so obvious you might not even know what that present is...

you are still not wishing me happy birthday... and it's too late...

and you don't keep to your word... stop pushing the duty around... and start giving me details before i freak out like the last time...

you take me for granted that i will do anything you ask me to do... but i'm doing because... i love BSMM...

am i your servant?? or a rag doll?? or that stupid bolster where you think of it only when no one is there to help you??

i am disliking you by the minute... and i'm frowning... like my dad... you should see my dad when he gets mad... that will be me next....

so stop acting as if we have no problem... that we are just fine... like before i told you i like you... because i'm really regretting i told you that... stop acting...

i want to have a real conversation with you... not ending it by walking away whenever our topic finishes... not starting it with a business matter...

whatever larh... i'm so emo nowadays... you be you... and i be myself...

ok... i know the post about my birthday is damn long... but i just want to share my story with you all...

ok... here is where i become emo...

for the whole day, i received a lot of birthday greetings... but not from him... did he forget about my birthday?? i waited until like now... but he had only tell me things about kursus kebakaran... or more like i asked him things...

even my junior was the first one to send the message... i didn't really expect him to wish me happy birthday... simple but touching...

i didn't really think about it... by how i wish he would wish me happy birthday... haiz...

ok... enough about him... let me tell you about the greetings i got...

there were simple ones... like just a happy birthday... a happy birthday song... making fun of my birthday ones... wishing me good health...?? greetings from genting... sweet 16... cannot call me small girl adi... and so many more...

but all in all... thanks for your greeting... i will truly cherish it...

Heyhey... today is my 16th birthday... let me tell you what i did for this special day...

first, i had this weird dream... and i woke up to the story the radio was broadcasting... at 6am... it was a love story... but what i was dreaming about and the story are 2 different things... creepy subconscious dreams... never seem right...

ok... and then i started receiving messages at around 8am... messages after messages of wishing me happy birthday... not that i'm complaining ~this is the first year i'm receiving so many birthday greetings....~ but i want to sleep.... sleep.... on my cold bed... with my big pig and bolster... so messages after messages i replied...

until slightly before 9.30am... does the messages stop coming in... then i doze off... which at 10am, my mom starts screaming downstairs for me to wake up... arh... my bed... my piggy...

so i had red eggs for breakfast plus this experiment thing my mom did... baked tomato with egg and cheese... a bit too soft though... then i quickly changed to my taekwondo outfit... and run off in the car... without the target... oh no... what will happen to me and my bro??

at taekwondo lesson... our main instructor never come... so we had another sir come and teach... after warming up, we had to do kicking... the seniors were told to go to another section to practice target kicking... whew... no need target... the sir told us our kicks need to be above our belt or he will send us running in the field... never 'kena'... so lucky... but damn tiring... cause after the seniors go off, our lane very few people... so after kicking one round... walk back and start again... so tiring... and the finally sir said we could rest... then he called us back... i thought yeah... we can leave... he asked us to do burpy plus pumping... haiz... so i was damn damn damn tired...

after reaching home, i had another red egg... ~it's my birthday ok... i get to eat...~ then bathe... and then my friend sms me asking me whether am i going for orchestra practice... so the sms battle begins again... in the end... i ask my dad to send me for orchestra practice at 2.15pm...

when i reached there, i saw mr chan... and he said no junior practice... whatever, i'm there already... so i went and yam cha with my friend... during senior practice... i waited for 20 minutes before another violist came... it was terrible... i thought i will be the only violist... wah... pressure arh... so we played 'simple symphony'... it was ok... but have to do some homework... like the treble clef and some notes....

after orchestra... i went to digital mall to send my bro's phone for repair... then my dad bought a new phone to pamper himself... and after that we went to the ramadhan bazaar down the street to go food hunting...

it's terrible you know... how we chinese buy the food meant for the muslim's buka puasa... but... we are malaysians marh... and muhibah like the proton advertisement... so, we got satay, ayam percik, murtabak, otak-otak and roti jala...

after buying and picking up my bro from the house, we went back to my maternal grandparents' house and had dinner... my aunt bought me an ice-cream cake... Mmmmm.... after dinner, we were like sitting down... but not catching up... coz we were watching 'shaggy dog'...so we just sat there and watch... until my mom said it was time to cut the cake... ok... so 15 mins break from the tv to cut cake... photo taking and then eating cake... in front of the tv again... haiz...

so, today was a very busy day... and very tiring... it was actually one of my happiest birthday... coz although i didn't receive a lot of present... but i did stuff today...

oh... and my present from my parents is a new camera... so i took pictures for today... yeah... new camera...


my camera case and camera start guide


me and my mom


me and my dad


me and my bro... it took me soooo long just to get a photo of him with me...


my cousin bro... for the fun of it...


me and my big uncle... cute expression... hehe


the 'sisters'... i'm the youngest...


do i look like my aunt??


3 generation of ladies... and i'm still the youngest...


Family photo


small family photo... my bro is soooo tall now...


birthday cake...

i've been sick for one week and more... ok... not THAT sick... but still sick enough so i don't have to go to school... which means no one in school would've seen me for one week... but...

i don't think anyone MISSES me at all... maybe some... but not a lot though...

why? i tell you why... based on the messages i received...

1) asking me to pass up my laporan pengajar...
2) ok... this gurl is not bad... she tells me my homework...
3) asking me how am i just because my classmates are asking her what happened to me... which means she wouldn't ask if none of my classmates asked her... haiz... so i didn't reply her... too upset...

And only one person knows what really happened to me because i ask him some questions... and ok... he's a good guy...

no one else seems to know or tried to ask me... (there's such thing as phone and telecommunication)... maybe that's how it is once we reach form 4... everyone for their own self only...

so... here am i ranting how no one cares about me when there are more people less fortunate like me... cause i'm back on my blog... hehe... see the verse there??

my birthday is 6 days more... but here am i writing a blog because...

i'm sick and i can't sleep on the bed because my selfish brother who happens to be very irritating every time of the day is on it watching TV... and i so goddamn need a bed to sleep on...

hopefully i will be better once i turn 16... hehe